VOIDNESS: Three Pieces

This project has become a visual expression of my journey to the motherhood: an embarrassing experience of carrying a baby in a womb and giving a birth to it. On my way to becoming a mother I was observing how my perception of the reality was changing, how something born by the nature itself, something wild and powerful had been awoken somewhere deep inside me. I had witnessed how an amazing feeling of being a part of some purely natural and well-regulated process had been developing. I started to spend more time in the country, which helped me to listen to myself, get ready for bringing a new life into the world and meeting it.

It was an amazing journey full of discoveries. During that year I had heard how pine cones cracked high in the branches, how overripe apples fell off from the trees with a muffled sound, the rattle of ants under my feet and the clinging sound of buds bursting into blossom. I could not even imagine that it might be so loud. While living that deep personal experience I had been pondering on what our conscience is and what makes up that other conscience living inside me. Where had it come from? Where is the line that divides us? Where is the border between the outer world and myself and why does it sometimes become so vague and start to glimmer? What does it all mean at all?
What exactly did make me so perceptive to the things beyond words, at what point of that deep personal experience did it happen?

Photography has been and is now helping me to find answers, or being more exact, to go on putting questions more precisely. A visual narrative is a kind of emotional map for me which I use to find the way to my inner self.


Maria Kokunova is an independent photographer and visual artist who lives and works in Saint-Petersburg, Russia. In her works, she focuses on the process of self-reflection and searches for visual metaphors to be used for examining her life in order to translate the emotional and psychological state—the result of a deep personal experience – into some visual form. She views photography as a dialogue with herself and a way of meditative thinking, Her works probes the theme of birth, fragility and transience of life. Instead of forcing herself into a formal framework, she prefers to concentrate on her own feelings, uses various visual modes to capture the shades of her own emotions, the mood of the idea, the subject or the place to create a complete visual image.

 

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